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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I feel like I'm in the washer machine on the agitation cycle ~~~~~~~~~~~~~









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A Teaching Moment

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I don’t know if lack of appetite is an MS symptom but I experience it sporadically. I love to eat; that is what I do. Lately I have no desire to eat anything. Everything taste horrible. With not eating comes nausea. It’s like morning sickness when passed the child bearing age. I drink plenty of water and juice to avoid dehydration.   My husband tells me to try and force myself to eat; however if I do; everything will end up on the floor. If I don’t lose the food, but don’t eat it all, well, I don’t like left overs.   I don’t want to waste food so I don’t bother unless I know that I know.   Lately, I DON’T KNOW if I’ll eat it or not.   I might get it in my mouth but I can’t chew or swallow it. This is really becoming a problem for two reasons: I don’t like taking medication on an empty stomach and I’ll be the first to stand and say that when I don’t eat; I’m very moody. It’s kind of ironic because I can’t find any information on the subject.   This is ano...
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It's Already Done!

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Joy

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Be Still!

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Pursue Peace!

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FYI

I read several good articles about how certain things effect those diagnosed with MS.  One of them was so funny and made me think that the person who  wrote it must know me.  LOL........................ One article spoke about social situations and how MS patients can/do perceive things wrong.  Someone can say something without malicious intentions & because of how the brain processes information a person with MS can perceive the person to be angry. Read more @ Healthline.com The reason it was funny cause when I'm talking to my husband, I sometime  say, I'm not going to argue with you and he'll say, Ruth, we are not arguing, we are just talking.  Sometimes it sounds like he is yelling at me.  After reading this article somethings make more sense. I also read how it is important to have good people in your life when battling a chronic disease.  Reading the article was good, but self experience has taught me this.  Read mo...
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Sunday Strength

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“But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”   Isaiah 40:31 “For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name.   I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.” Ephesians 3:14-19
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