HOW I FEEL...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I feel like I'm in the washer machine on the agitation cycle ~~~~~~~~~~~~~









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The Truth Is!

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It's Already Done!

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In The Know

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In the midst of doing research, I found an article about using sleep deprivation for severe depression.   It stated that sleep deprivation has a total opposite effect in healthy people then those with depression. The article said if you are healthy and don’t sleep, you develop an attitude but if you are depressed, it can improve your mood/cognitive behavior. I had to share for a couple of reasons:   I thought it was funny because if I read in to it, “I’m healthy & I’m not depressed”.   Because when I’m tired or sleepy; I quickly get an attitude and I’m going to sleep. Depression is a part of MS.   My opinion is that, we will all deal with it in one way or the other. This is all my perception of the article.   Check it out at Healthline . “In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, Lord, make me dwell in safety”. Psalm 4:8 on WebMD , studies show, it’s possible that vitamin D can ease MS symptoms. Researchers find that those with high...
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My Story

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Not That much

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