How Do You Feel?


I belong to this MS site, I can’t remember the name of it.  However, my point is, it always ask the question of “How Do You Feel”?

In keeping track of my feelings, today is not a good day.  I find that drama only work if I do.  So guess what, I quit!  My spirit said, stop feeding it. It is living off of you, Ruth.

I feel like a light bulb in a dark room, a flower waiting to bloom.  Today I’m feeling like I don’t belong anywhere.  I feel like a door with no knob, a bird with no wings.  I feel bent but not broken.

Now, that I got that out of my spirit, I’ll tell you that, MS is a lonely road to travel.  Learning how to be humble hurts. It hurts to the core. 

Oh, did I say, today my energy level is so low.  I feel like all I can do is breath & maybe wink my eyes every now & then. The fatigue is so heavy that I don’t think I can wink both eyes, maybe just one of them.

God clearly states, “I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you.”  Luke 10:19




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