Where Did It Come From?


As I said before, there is no rhyme or reasoning to my blogging.  None of this is in chronical order.  I write as it is on my mind.

When the doctor first diagnosed MS, while waiting for test results; he said something to the effect of if I don’t have it; he might as well retire. I thought 4 things:  (1) well, you idiot, you better go ahead home cause I DO NOT HAVE MS! (2) How will I manage it all? (3) How will it affect my husband? (4) God, what are You saying?  I was afraid.  Afraid of the unknown.

Isaiah 43:1 “But now, this is what the Lord says—he who created you, Jacob, he who formed you, Israel: Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.”

Traveling through this journey, the only comfort that I have is knowing that God; created me, redeemed me, knows my name, is with me.  Otherwise I would have thrown up my hands & given up by now.  Oh, after three years, I still don’t know what God is trying to tell me.  Basing it all on what I know about God, I’ll just grab His hand & go along.  As long as I stay in the Will of God; everything will work out for my good & His glory.

While dealing with MS, I’ve learned some valuable lessons.  To name a few: I’ve learned pain, hurt, I’m learning how to express myself & act on what I know to be the TRUTH.  What I’m saying is, lean on God, trust Him, and believe Him.  In other words, I’m standing on His Word.  He said it & I believe it.

And the Lord said to Satan, “From where do you come?” So Satan answered the Lord and said, “From going to and fro on the earth, and from walking back and forth on it.”  Then the Lord said to Satan, “Have you considered My servant Job, that there is none like him on the earth, a blameless and upright man, one who fears God and shuns evil?”  So Satan answered the Lord and said, “Does Job fear God for nothing? Have You not made a hedge around him, around his household, and around all that he has on every side? You have blessed the work of his hands, and his possessions have increased in the land.  But now, stretch out Your hand and touch all that he has, and he will surely curse You to Your face!”  And the Lord said to Satan, “Behold, all that he has is in your power; only do not lay a hand on his person” Job 1:7-12.  When reading the Word of God, I always make it personal. In other words, “Have you considered My servant Ruth?”  If you continue to read Job, you’ll find that God gave him back double for all that he went through while remaining faithful.


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